Yesterday I was in a pretty good mood. I tried to hang on to that because lately I've been super depressed. I tried thinking positive and noting things like, "gosh, I like her purple purse" or smiling because someone was wearing a knitted beanie that looked like a strawberry. Seriously! It was super cute. There were lots of other little things that made me smile or giggle, and I just decided to focus on being chipper and complimenting others and being chipper- I can't even tell you how good it made me feel to just think that positively. I know it's kind of a "duh" thing, but considering how depressed/upset/tired/angry I've been lately, it was really a welcome change. I felt really, really good.

Now, take today for example. ( Click here for tales of woe. )

Anyway, I've gotten to know one of my classmates pretty well this semester (we've had classes together the last three semesters) and we've finally reached that "we're friends, let's hang out and call each other and yay!" status with one another, so that's nice. I really have needed someone to talk and vent to that I actually see on a regular basis (beside my boyfriend), so it's nice to have a girl friend- took me long enough! I have one semester until I graduate and I'm just now making friends. d'oh. >.<

Well.. I haven't done any work today, but I guess I'm kind of okay with that. I'm going to veg out some and just chillax. So moody and tired and stressed. Not cool. My midterms are all next week and I'd like at least one or two days to just "be".

Okay folks, have a nice night! :)

Haven't updated in a while... Not a whole lot going on other than basic frustration with my housemate and on-going drama with my sister.

My housemate has been even worse than usual lately. ( Click here to read about my housemate drama- wooo! )

Anyway, I'm tired of focusing on all this negativity. I think I'll start a draft of that email and then show it to my boyfriend later for editing. Hopefully we can get this resolved, but after speaking with a friend of ours, we're thinking it's time to vote our housemate off that island. I'm tired of dealing with his stupid bullshit.

Oh yeah... and I might be catching a cold, but I stayed in tonight and took some alkaselzer cold medicine to try and stave it off. I'm going to sleep in again tomorrow and hope that I start getting better. It doesn't help that I'm stressed from school (I haven't done ANY homework and I have a test, quiz and paper due next week- argh!), my sister issue, and heightened housemate drama. Blah.

I'm soooo glad I have Monday off from work!!

I'm aiming for my next post to be more positive. I don't need my journal to be all pissy and aggro! LOL.

Yep, it's my boyfriend's 21st birthday today. I bought him some awesome kitchen stuff and a bottle of whiskey to get his party started. He's actually going to go out tonight with a bunch of guys and I'll stay home... because I have homework and class tomorrow. >.< I'm kind of bummed I won't be going out with him, but I know that after a few hours I'll get tired of all the guys doing stupid guy things and I'll want to go home and end up being a party-pooper.

That being said, I feel like a cradle robber even though I've barely two years older. Whatevs. Now he and I can go ANYWHERE whenever we want and there's no age issue anymore. woohoo!

In other news... I'm just tired (what else is new?) and trying to get my shit done.

OH! I finally talked to an adviser on campus and it turns out I only need 5 units to graduate- OMG! That means I need to take 2 Comm classes and then I'll flesh out my full-time status with whatever class I want. AWESOME SAUCE. I'll probably go in again and have another adviser go over my docs just to be SURE... it'll suck if I get to the end of the semester to find out I was ill-advised. Gah!

My next decision will be whether to go to grad school or not... the deadlines are closing in, and I'm not sure if I want to go for it or not. I think I'm smart enough and everything, but it would be nice to work full time and build up some cash reserves before I jump back into it.

Decisions, decisions!

YARR!! It be a glorious day for celebratin' as all the worthy sea rats are bein' honored t'day with a holiday of our very own!

I have a bottle of rum awaitin' and my pirate shirt will be out of the dryer shortly. 'Twill be a grand and glorious weekend, says I.

Apparently I'm turning into a zombie. I haven't slept enough lately (I would say definitely since school started) so I'm beginning to get paler (is that possible?), perpetually tired and fatter. Yes, fatter. Very uncomfortable for me, but I'm trying to budget what with my boyfriend being out of a job and I seem to have no time to do anything until the weekend. Instead of relaxing for a couple of days, I'm cramming in all my schoolwork before Monday. UGH. I was hoping that my late morning classes would allow me the opportunity to work out before class, but I've been using that time to catch up on sleep- and trust me, it's not really working. >.<;

That being said, I've recently been forgetting little things such as how to keep busy at work, or where I put my keys, or forgetting to do homework the proper way. I had a professor email me today saying that our reading guides had to be typed- she had written it on the syllabus, on our online course guide and in class! What the hell? How had a missed that?! I'm usually really good about following instructions, but that's the second assignment this semester that I've completed incorrectly. *sighs* I've been putting more effort into this semester than I ever have before and it's literally exhausting me - is it worth it? I hope so!

I have to get back to work (yeah, I know.. I'm being terrible updating at work), but my brain is so fried that if I get stuck on one thing (like thinking about my forgetfulness) that if I don't get it off my mind, I end up screwing up other stuff.

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Okay, that's all for now.

Since I've moved to my current city I really haven't made that many friends. I know a handful of people that I am more familiar with than others and a few I make a point to chat with on occasion, but I don't really hang out with those people outside of school. Sometimes I get lonely and worried that I don't go out as much as others my age, but I've already been working pretty hard this semester so I haven't really had time to go out or do much outside of school and some basic relax time at home.

That being said, my buddy and her friend came up this weekend to hang out before her UC started. We were celebrating the end of summer, her friend quitting her shitting job and moving to Arizona to go to school, and my friend and my "friend-a-versary". My friend and I have known each other for a decade now, and we think that's pretty neat.

It was a ( craaaaazy awkward night ) The night was a bit of a fail since we never made it to a dance club. We just "wanted to dance" but alas. Apparently every good bar in my town is out of the way of any easily accessible public transit. BAH!

This morning we went out to breakfast at a little hole-in-the-wall that my boyfriend and I go to (when we go out for breakfast), got a delicious-yet-cheap breakfast, went to a museum with a sweet planetarium, ate terrific (and again, cheap!) Indian food, got lost for a while and finally made it home. We walked a LOT today as well, and my feet hate me right now. They are freaking battered.

I should really do homework but I feel pretty wiped out, especially since I came home and did dishes and tidied up the bathroom. Meh. Maybe I'll just watch some T.V. or play video games or whatever.

The point of all this was that it was really nice to have ladies around. I love my boyfriend, but I live with him and another guy, so I'm constantly surrounded by testosterone. It's SO nice to be able to talk about girly things and chat in an uninhibited manner. The girls were awesome and, despite having a bit of failure of a night out, I still had fun. We're going to go out again during the holidays and have more girly time and actually find a dance club, hahaha.

Well, I'm pooped.. I'm going to go veg. My boyfriend bought cookies and a fire log, so it's cozy time! XD

I had a crazy weekend. There was a big, awesome dinner planned that was ruined when one of my sibs had a little silent treatment/hissy fit at the dinner table. My Dad was then bitten by his girlfriend's doberman and had to be bandaged up before he drove home. That night was okay considering my boyfriend and I had a bed, but it was hot, the bed was waaay too hard (and itchy!) and we barely slept at all.

The next morning we got up and got ready to go out. Chatted with my neighbor who's house we had spent the night, and then went out to meet some friends for lunch since my sister wasn't dressed or ready to go anywhere. Long story short, my sister flipped out (crazy bitch status) at me and we had a huge screaming match. Finally I was able to calmly speak with her, but then I was basically blamed for my sister's complete lack of initiative. I'm not as mad as my youngest sibling as my "middle" one, but I'm still really frustrated.

( See here for extremely lengthy rant-fest... )

Anyway... I'm just getting myself worked up again... I actually had a nice afternoon/evening today. I was depressed and upset for most of the day, but then we had some friends hang out- we had home-made sushi, had some drinks and such and then went over to our friend's house to hang out in the hot tub. I was super relaxed when I left, but of course, I have to ruin it by getting upset again. I'm just trying to work all my feelings out so I don't stuff them down or ignore them- just trying to get them alll out so I can deal with it properly.

It's super late, so I'm heading to bed. I never stay up this late- but I just wanted to write for a bit. Ciao for now!

Bought my books yesterday, woo woo! Now, I'm not always for hawking products or services, but <url=http://www.chegg.com> is le awesome. I'm not always so great at returning things, borrowed from friends, the library or, well, whatever. I just never get around to it, even though it's not that big of a deal.

ANYWAY, Chegg is ( aweseome because... )

Anyway, I've ordered all my books and only have one "reader" to wait for (it's being printed), and total I'll have spent only about $110-$120 after about 6 books! That averages to about $20 a book. Sweeet.

Anyway, I'm pretty excited to be going back to school. I don't like sitting around all summer being idle. I really like learning and tend to slack off when I'm not on a set schedule. I've even gained weight over the summer. wtf. People are usually losing weight to work on their "swimsuit bodies". ARGH. Oh well, it's my own fault.

This semester I plan to work out during school mornings (my classes don't begin until 11am) and take yoga at the beginning of the week. Oh, funny story about ( yoga... )

In other news, it feels as if we were moving in again. My former housemate finally came and took back a bunch of his stuff, so we had to go and get a new kitchen rack, dishes;etc. We still need to get a dining room table, but that's going to have to wait until we get some cash. My boyfriend is still looking for work and I'm still in debt, but I'll be able to pay some stuff off when I get my student loan. woo woo.

I think that's it for now. More later!

Ah... haven't updated in a while and don't really feel like doing a full update tonight so I'll just do bullet points to remind me of what to write about later.

-Hometown errands
-School
-Replacement stuffs
-Fair
-Picnic
-Ikea
-Yoga instructor

Anyway... more tomorrow. I have to get up early to crash a course.

Ciao!

Heeeeey.

So, I worked full time during the summer and earned a huge paycheck. I smogged my dad's car, went grocery shopping, bought cleaning supplies and other necessities for the house and so on. Then what did I do?

HUGE SHOPPING SPREE.

Yeah, I pretty much went nuts. I never get to shop for myself. Other than a couple of school sweaters, I haven't actually gone "shopping" in a few years. I mean, yeah, every once in a while a girl's gotta snag a bra or whatever, but never just shopping, shopping, shopping.

Seriously. I shopped until I was tired of shopping. As in, I didn't want to shop anymore. Oh jeezus.

I feel slightly guilty for blowing tons of money, but on the other hand, I actually have some CLOTHES and ACCESSORIES, and and makeup. OH MY GOD. I think I've become a girl! *gasp!*

Anyway, it was pretty fun. School starts in a couple of weeks and I'll have some fun looks to try out. *squee*

I had convinced myself that I was going to go for a walk/jog/run today, but it just never happened. Seems like when I don't have anything that I have to do, I just don't do anything. Then again, school starts in a few weeks, so I should be grateful for the time that I have to just sit around. Also, it's not like I'm not doing anything at all... I do chores like laundry, cleaning, dishes, watering plants;etc.

When my boyfriend gets home he's going to be so excited about how spic-and-span everything is. ha.

When I think about it, I did work pretty hard for 3 weeks. I even took work home (did the other day, too!), so I should really cut myself some slack.

Speaking of work, I like my coworker a lot. She's really sweet and everything, but I get so ( frustrated sometimes )

As a side note, I find it odd sometimes how much advice I impart to others. I'm no genius or anything, but I tend to be able to read people fairly well and give a sound comment or two on their situations. These days, though, when someone has drama or some deep emotional upset, I don't really get involved on a personal level. In the past, when someone came to me for help, I made their problem my problem and I would stress myself out. These days, I try to listen impartially to what's going on and try to find the crux of the matter. Sometimes people just want you to listen, and sometimes people want answers. The trick is knowing which.

ha... Here I end the monk-like musings...

Wow. I sound really full of myself tonight. I think it just appears that way because I meant to write about my coworker frustration last night, so that combined with me being pleased (and pleasantly surprised) about helping out friends, it makes me sound like a have a huge ego. I swear I don't!!

Right now I'm just snacking on dinner. I lit some incense and candles (because those are my comfy cozies) and made some hot chocolate to warm me up as I wind down for the day. Work tomorrow. For now, Battlestar awaits!

Oh man, my arms and calves have ached today, but I really don't mind.

Rode around the city yesterday.. good god, what a moron I am for not keeping track of where I was. I ended up biking for about 2 hours, and let me tell you, some of the hills in this town are nucking futz. I finally started feeling my legs about to give out, so I walked up a hill or two, then got back on and kept going. The buurrrrn. It hurts so good.

Also, I'm feeling pretty accomplished because I had this list of stuff to do yesterday, and I pretty much knocked off everything on it. BOO YAH! Isn't that the best part about lists? The lovely feeling of crossing things off. aaaahhhhhhh.. :)

Right. So it's flippin' cold right now. (Summer my ASS.) I'm gonna make some easy-to-do chow, because I'm a bum and don't feel like cooking, and I just need something toasty in my tummy right now.

BTW, guess who forgot to wear deodorant to work today? MEEEEEEEEEE. Fail.

Time for some tea!!!

That wasn't P.C., but I never promised I would be. (ooh, rhyme!) Anywho, not much to report here. My boyfriend left for a camping trip and my housemate is out of the country until later next month, so here I am, bored and lonely. I have sat on my duff all day and researched makeup tips/products and debating people on the interwebs.

GOD, I am pathetic.


It's hard, too, considering I am lacking in the monetary department, so I guess that means I'll have to go for a bike ride and stick to doing house chores.

Blaaaah.

Okay, enough with the self-pity. My bike rides are going to be AWESOME and the house will be SPARKLING.

I'm frustrated about budget cuts. Once again, my university has upped tuition. (We're at a 30% increase since May...) At this rate, I'll barely be able to afford books. And they wonder why we order out instead of purchasing from the bookstore? Why would I pay $100 for a book when I could rent it for half that (or less) or purchase it elsewhere for a better price?

I've had folks tell me to stop complaining unless I have a solution, but the folks in office should have learned by previous errors by now. Whenever we have a budget crisis, one of the first things to go is education. Umm... how will we be able to work out future crises if the folks that have the potential to do so can't afford to continue studying? Then again, if the masses are ignorant they are SO much easier to control. Ugh.

The cuts just make me scared for next semester. My co-worker and I had a horrible time trying to mesh our schedules, so I can't imagine what would happen if any of my classes were dropped. They've postponed registration about 3 times now, which means that the students will only have 2-3 weeks (or less, depending on registration times) to figure everything out. How does the university expect people to graduate if there aren't classes available?

Griping isn't doing me any good, but I don't know what else to do either. I suppose I'll just have to ride with the tides.

Why is it so impossible for some men to look at your face when they speak to you? It's really not that difficult.

We have a summer intern at the office and he cannot manage to maintain eye contact while speaking to me. I swear, every other word his gaze drifts down and frantically flickers upwards again. It's almost as if he knows he's doing it and trying very hard not to, but he's failing miserably. NOT COOL

I've had some guy friends tell me to take it as a compliment since I clearly have an amazing chest, but no, I'd rather not. This guy is in law school training to be an attorney, he should know better than to stare at females that way. What's he going to do in Court? Lose track of a hearing or settlement conference because he's too busy staring at opposing counsel's tits? WHAT THE HELL?!

He's only slightly older than myself, which leads me to the conclusion that he is an awkward nerd that has never had a girlfriend, or perhaps has forgotten what females look like because he's been buried in legal texts for so long.

Anyway, I can't believe I'm even ranting about this. I shouldn't have to worry about being gawked at while in the office. I have to wear professional attire. It's not like I'm wearing shirts with deep v-neck cuts or something.

In conclusion, next time I have a chat with him and he does that, I'm going to pointedly (yet politely) drop the hint that I don't appreciate him appreciating my assets.

Blah.

Saw the new Harry Potter! Overall, I liked it. The humor was (mostly) rather well done, but there was a portion mid-movie that I found questionable and I thought the ending came up short. Otherwise, I was giggling pretty much nonstop and Horace Slughorn was amazing.

( Under the cut to avoid massive spoilers... )

By the way... how beautiful was the Felix scene? Excellent.

Definitely good enough to watch again, but I probably won't fork out the huge theater prices to see it a second time. I've never really liked the Harry Potter films as much as others, but there's just so much going on in the books that is hard to capture in cinema, so I tend to like the novels better. Alas. Still, if you're a fan. Go see it.

DO IIIIITTTTTTTT! ;)

Um...  pretty sure my toaster oven just caught on fire and I had to douse it with several, several handfuls of flour. (If you ever have an electrical/grease fire, do NOT use water!)

I don't think the mighty toaster oven will be recovering from this.

It was my own damn fault and now I have to buy a new one.

ARRRRGGGHH.

P.S. Seeing only flames through a flimsy glass door and having them shoot out as soon as you open it is scary/interesting at the same time.  I wouldn't advise this as a common practice.

>.<;;;;

Obviously, I am REALLY excited.  I secured tickets to the midnight showing (opening night) for Half-Blood Prince.  I am SO glad I bought them the first week of July since everything is now SOLD OUT. 

I decided to reread HBP since I've only read it once (I know, shaaaaame), and I've managed to power through it in only a few days (hey!  I've been working full-time or I'd have finished it sooner!) so I'll be up to speed.  (Read: be able to properly rant with everyone else about what Warner Bros. left out. )

Needless to say, I'll be wearing my "Harry" shirt that I snagged from a sib as well as my hand-made Gryffindorish-looking scarf.

*SQUEE*

Two things:

1.) My boyfriend lost his job. I never thought I'd be a "victim" of the economy. It's a bit bizarre. I haven't really told any of my friends. I came home from work on Wednesday to find my boyfriend already there, asked him how his day was, and he replied "I was laid off".
I'm trying not to think about too much, because I get emotional, so I'm trying to just take it in stride.

( More in-depth job loss lamentations... )

We're a little scared, surprised and nervous. He had a good gig and they had assured him until the end that he was safe. Apparently the company lost a lot of business around the holiday weekend and they let go his entire team, except for a Senior Engineer that they had hired a month prior. Figures. *sighs*

2.) I started this journal as a means to meet more nerdy people and LOW AND BEHOLD, that's not really working. I *did* just start the journal, so I shouldn't be upset. On the other hand, I've just been posting life stories and rants, nothing nerdy. Oops?

Sorry, kudos if you know that reference.  ha.

Anyway, my coworker brought her 3-week old baby in today.  So cute.  I was super nervous though (like I usually get when holding other people's babies) when she let me hold him I SWEAT LIKE CRAZY.  I mean, seriously.  I probably looked like a freak, standing there with a baby, getting red and sweat beading on my forehead.  So attractive.  They were probably thinking, "uh......"

Oh well.

The point I really do want to make is how something so "common" such as giving birth still evokes in us such strong feelings.  How many babies have we seen before?  Yet, when it belongs to someone we know and see regularly, our hearts melt and we think fondly of our own experiences with kids or future expectations.

I'm not a breeder, shut up.



.... I still want kids, though.  XD